Senin, 11:11 pm

Tuhan, bolehkah aku meminta serendipity sekali lagi?

Senin, 07:30 am
Pagi ini ku mulai hari seperti biasa, mengecek sosial mediaku sembari menyerutup secangkir kopi. Ada sebuah notifikasi dari 3 tahun lalu, sebuah foto grup saat liburan ke Yogyakarta, wajah-wajah tak asing yang sekarang lebih sering kurindukan daripada kutemui. Tak sengaja aku temukan sebuah wajah lain yang sangat lekat di otakku. Dia tak seharusnya ada di foto ini, tidak. Aku harus berulang kali memperbesar foto itu, meyakinkan diriku bahwa aku tidak salah orang. Ya, mata yang sama, garis wajah yang sama hanya sedikit lebih tirus. Tuhan, ini apa?

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Denting dawai menyuarakan sebuah awal kisah kehidupan,

yang berjalan, detik berputar, hari dimulai

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Senin, 08:13 pm
Malam ini, otakku menjelma menjadi detektif, memutar ulang semua memori dan pembicaraan 2 tahun lalu. Insomnia sudah pasti akan menjadi sahabatku kali ini.

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I've read somewhere before, "Someone is tough when she's left alone, surviving all by herself and her might. When you give her a shoulder to lean on, she's just not that tough anymore." Karena memang itulah insting dasar semua yang diberi nyawa: untuk bertahan.

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"Aku udah beli tiket," kataku tiba-tiba mencoba membuka pembicaraan.
"Hah? Kemana?" tanyamu kebingungan.
"Somewhere. Over the rainbow~" jawabku sambil bergurau.
"Hahaha, seriusan ini, mau kemana?" desakmu.
"Thailand. HAHAHA." tampaknya tawaku terlalu aku paksakan.
"Kamu gak pernah cerita." selidikmu.
"Memang. Aku impulsif. You know lah.." jawabku sekenanya.
"Nanti di sana, mungkin aku bakalan disconnect sementara. Gak usah titip oleh-oleh ya. Kere nih." sambungku sebelum kamu sempat berkata-kata.

Sebelum akhirnya malam ini usai, aku mencoba menangkap matamu, mencoba menggali sesuatu, dari hatimu, dari hatiku. Setelah malam ini, aku tak tahu apa yang mungkin akan terjadi.

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Ku tergetar saat menatap kedua matamu

Melahirkan seutas keinginan 'tuk memilikimu

Kian bertahan memendam raut wajahmu
kulihat sebuah jalan yang langsung menuju batinmu

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Rrrrrttt. Rrrrrttt. Rrrrrttt.

Ponselku bergetar, membuyarkan lamunanku. Sudah lama rasanya aku tak melamun, kemudian secara tak sengaja sebuah lagu favoritku saat dulu terputar di pesawat radio. Ku tengok ponsel, sebuah panggilan yang sebenarnya tak begitu kuharapkan. Betapa dua manusia bisa saling terhubung, Semesta. Aku takjub. Bagaimana bisa Dia mengatur semua ini begitu saja dengan alasan “kebetulan”.

“Halo, bisa bicara dengan Cinta.” Sebuah suara yang amat ku kenal.

“Pret!” Jawabku singkat yang langsung disambut suara tawa yang dulu pernah amat kusuka. Biasanya kucubit pipinya kalau sudah begitu. Dulu.

Pembicaraan itu tipikal basa-basi yang cukup membuatku tak peduli akan yang sebenarnya kami bicarakan. Yang kuingat hanya kalimat yang aku lontarkan tanpa pikir panjang, “Jangan buat gue jatuh cinta sama lo lagi. Please.”

Jeda sejenak, dan seingatku aku mulai tidak suka pembicaraan yang mulai serius itu. 

Forgetting all the hurt inside

You’ve learned to hide so well

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Sore itu, di ujung trotoar, seorang lelaki duduk di atas motornya sambil memainkan telepon genggam keluaran Denmark yang sudah terlalu uzur. Bermain “Snakes” sepertinya. Entah sudah berapa level yang telah ia taklukan sembari menunggu.

Dari ujung trotoar satunya, seorang gadis dengan setelan kaos dan jeans, lengkap dengan jaket hijau lumut dan tas kanvas datang berjalan ke arah si Lelaki. Tepat di hadapan si Lelaki, si Gadis memasang senyum lebar, menutupi rasa bersalah. Mereka memutuskan untuk segera beranjak. Peluit kereta api dan besi yang beradu menjadi iringan kepergian mereka.

Tak banyak yang mereka bicarakan selama perjalanan sore itu. Cuaca dan kabar sudah dari tadi mereka tamatkan. Si Gadis memilih larut dalam semburat senja. “Terlalu sunyi, aku tidak suka,” pikir si Gadis, “Tapi untuk saat ini, biarlah sunyi.”

Do you feel the way I do? Right now

Tak lama, sebuah kafe kecil menjadi persinggahan mereka. Wangi kayu dinding kafe dan setangkup roti bakar terlalu menggugah untuk diabaikan lama-lama di antara senandung lagu hujan. Tapi mereka tetap harus bicara, apapun kecuali tentang kabar dan cuaca. Mereka mulai tergelak tawa pada hal-hal yang entah apa. Si Gadis tak suka sunyi, sunyi hanya boleh untuk sendiri. Apapun, mereka harus tetap bicara, termasuk kisah-kisah mereka.

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Aku suka berisik ini.
Semilir angin yang terkadang melaju,
derik jangkrik yang saling beradu,
dan gemericik air pancuran
yang walaupun palsu,
cukup meramaikan malamku,
dan mendamaikannya di satu waktu.

Ada engkau di ujung satunya.
Setidaknya aku tahu itu engkau di sana,
tergelak pada laku bodohmu sendiri,
yang menjadikan hatiku ramai,
dan risik itu yang menjadikannya damai.


-Bandung, hujan malam hari.

I find a post by 9gag said that, "You know you're old when you have more wedding invitation than a birthday party." and yeah, I know I'm old. It's my lifetime best friend's wedding!
It's a very late post btw, but who cares. It's Anda's wedding. \(^o^)/

beautiful isn't it?

I was very surprised when she mentioned about her boyfriend, which is also my high school and college friend, coming to her house, along with his parents. I thought there would be some engagement thing first, since Anda herself hadn't finish her medical school yet. But her parents said there's no need such engagement, "If you two really want to get marry, just marry then," that's what they said. Furthermore, Anda said that she would have her Co-Ass soon, so I really guessed that it would be the next year thing. I was totally wrong!!! She said that they would hold their wedding before her co-ass in September, which means it's in this year. *shock* While there's Ramadhan month in mid-July, and she said that the wedding should be held before Ramadhan. *double shock*
Just to make it clear, that conversation of us was in early April. So I was not exaggerating things when she said all of those things. She just had less than 3 months preparation. For a wedding!! I felt sorry I couldn't be much help for the preparation, I was still in Bandung at that time. But I helped as much as I could do, gave her some suggestions here and there when she needed. She told me about her wedding theme that mostly about fairy tale so she made it a garden party. Not a total garden party as you usually saw in movies, but it's still beautiful. I was asked to make an invitation wording for her. It's kinda hard to match the theme, but thankfully she satisfied with my works. :D

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Okay, first, I wanna give you an alert. This post is actually a post I made to win a gift. I don't know since when I became such a bounty hunter. hahaha. Well, who's on earth that didn't even want free stuffs? :p
Moreover, it's a Korea trip gift for 4 days and 3 night by Korean Tour Organization (KTO) together with Korean Air!! How tempting is that?? Well, actually, no matter where the trip is, I think I'll still take part of it. And it's Korea!! A country that (so far) just can be seen (by me) in its dramas, or movies, or MVs, or even just a picture. Oh, btw, it's called Asian On Air Program. :)

It's dreaming tiiiiiimeeee..... \(^o^)/
Why I said "dreaming time"? Because it's pretty clear that I am still here, typing this post, wondering what will I do IF I can be one of those lucky bloggers. Now, if you may, I would present you: things I want TO DO, if I get to visit Korea. Drumroll please... :D

1. EAT
Okay, if you think I'm kidding by stating that, no-no, you're wrong. I'm very serious about it. Honestly, I think the next Korean wave to spread all over the world after K-Drama and K-Pop is K-Cuisine. I want to eat as many Korean food as I can try. Call me a pig whatsoever, but. Oh, wait, I don't wanna be called as pig. Okay, how about passionately-food-loving-girl? Yeah, that's better.
Call me a passionately-food-loving-girl whatsoever, but in fact, Korean foods are all tempting! Bibimbap (비빔밥), ttokpokki (떡볶이), samgyetang (삼계탕), jajangmyun (짜장면), kimbab (김밥), or tofu stew (순두부찌개), you name it. Even my friends were all like drooling over a variety show just because there's some eating scenes, which I'm pretty sure, it's involving what so called food. They even loved my home made kimbab! :D

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Belum tuntas ku bongkar kotak masa lalu itu, saat kamu kembali menyapa hidupku. Aku tersenyum. Tapi bahkan aku tidak tahu senyum apa itu?
Bahagiakah aku, kau menemukanku lagi? Atau berpura-purakah aku, menyangkal tangis berharap tak kan pernah lagi menemukanmu?

Have you ever seen your face,

in a mirror there's a smile  

Tunggu. Bukan. Bukan keduanya.
Bahagiakah aku atas kemenanganku melawan masa laluku? Atau berpura-purakah aku, menyangkal ketakutanku pada kembalimu? Entahlah.

But inside you're just a mess,

you feel far from good 

Tentu kau tak juga tahu. Kau hanya melihat senyumku tanpa mengartikannya. Karena kamu adalah kamu. Kamu yang sama, batinku.

Kembali aku buka kotak itu. Satu hal yang belum sempat ku kenang. Amplop hitam dengan sebuah hiasan origami bentuk hati yang biasa aku buat, tanpa perangko di sudutnya. Amplop yang tak pernah aku kirimkan.

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Siang itu sungguh panas dan aku pun mengurungkan niatku untuk pergi menepati janji. "Sudahlah, tunda saja nanti malam ya." rujukku di pesan singkat itu. Tak lama setelahnya, "Oke" jawabnya singkat, tanpa embel-embel gombalan anak labil jaman sekarang. Setidaknya aku tahu, itulah dia. Dia yang aku suka dengan segala ke-simpel-an yang ia punya.

Dan disana, di bawah meja baca, kotak kayu seukuran kardus sepatu, tergeletak jarang aku indahkan, tiba-tiba terasa sangat menarik untuk diperhatikan. Sembari menunggu matahari agak tenang, ku buka lagi kotak itu. Sudah berdebu. Ukiran tulisan berantakan "masa lalu" itu sudah sedikit terkaburkan oleh sarang laba-laba yang telah ditinggalkan sang pemiliknya. Ternyata nasib kotak kayu dan sarang itu kurang lebih sama. Sama-sama sudah terlupakan pemiliknya, entah sudah berapa lama.
Aku mulai berusaha membuka grendel kunci yang agaknya sudah hampir berkarat. Dan menemukan apa yang dulu pernah kusimpan, dan kukunci rapat. Bukti masa laluku. Sekotak bunga kering, tiket film kencan pertama, secarik kertas lusuh dengan tulisan berantakan, sebuah origami manis berbentuk hati, dan sebuah amplop hitam. Untunglah tidak ada foto di sana, jadi aku tidak perlu ikut membongkar memori yang ada di otakku. Tapi mau tak mau, akhirnya harus ku bongkar juga ingatan-ingatan itu dengan menilik satu-per-satu barang dalam kotak itu.

Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing

Especially when I have to watch other people kissing

And I remember when you started to call me your miss's

All the play fighting, all the flirtatious disses 

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난, 울면 돼? 진짜 너무해. 용도없는, 알아. 그냥.
하지만..

포기 안해!!! 지금은 안돼!!!

-post note-
 I was in mess, then so did this post come to be. I apologize for the messing grammar and words. *bows*

About my previous post Heart's a Mess, I was inspired by a friend of mine that making a story based on lyrics. Her name's Dessy, and here's her blog: Purple Daisy. I read a post of her about a story which she made from a song lyrics. And I love it. She told a story from her point of view, that made the song itself came alive. Isn't that all about a song, to tell you a story, and so did she.
Since I'm pretty much interested in such writing things, I guess I want make some from my perspective. So here there is, my first post, my first story, my first prosa tag. :D
However, I made it in Bahasa Indonesia because my lack of ability in writing some English literature, sorry for the inconvenience. Hope you can enjoy. :)

P.S.: tante desiii...aku mengadaptasi idemu yaaaa.... :*

Adios! ^^

“Plakkk!!” sebuah sapaan hangat dari tangan mungil wanita itu cukup membuat pipimu merona. Dia sempat memakimu lalu secepat kilat meninggalkanmu terdiam di sana, sendiri. Sempat kau lihat bayanganmu di kaca air matanya, namun tak pernah kau indahkan itu. Setidaknya itu yang aku lihat dari matamu. Dari sekian banyak hal serupa olehmu.

~ Pick apart pieces of your heart

Let me peer inside

Let me in, where only your thoughts have been

Lalu kali ini kulihat kau termenung. Diam. Menatap kosong segelas es kopi yang sedari sejam lalu kau pesan, yang sepertinya enggan kau minum. Lalu kau mulai menerawang jauh ke dalam gelapnya minumanmu. Mencoba menengok masa lalumu. Mencoba mengingat setiap luka yang ada. Membuatnya hidup kembali, luka-luka itu. Dan aku melihatmu bibirmu bergumam lirih, “Sudahlah” kemudian kamu tersenyum satir.

~ Your heart’s a mess,

You won’t admit to it

You don’t get burned, ‘cause nothing gets through

It makes it easier, easier on you

But that much more difficult for me

To make you see..

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It's my late post, continuing Dopamine Booster: Round 1 - Myeong Ga post before. After eating lunch at Myeong Ga, we headed to Ciwalk. Kak Avi said that she wanted to buy some toast at Roppan. Kak Avi and I had almost bought some before, but it wasn't so convenience at that time, so we ended up saving that for another time. Finally, we've got a chance to go there, even though our stomach were already full. But there's always an empty space for dessert right? ;)

Roppan stands for Roppongi Pan, which means "bread that bring happiness" (if I'm not mistakenly recall it. CMIIW). And surely it does. There are a lot of kind of toast at Roppan, I couldn't remember one by one. But one thing for sure, they're all tempting! They were all displayed near the cashier so the customer can chose anything they like through its display shelves then being served right away.

Since we split ways because some circumstances, Kak Avi and I riding a public transportation came earlier than others, so we ordered first. We ended up ordering a Honey Toast Matcha Matcha, a lychee tea, and a peach tea. Honey Toast is a signature dish from Roppan, it's a big chunk of toast bread's crust as a place to put the contents. The contents itself consist of toasted bread (the white part) with honey spread all over it, and on the top of it, there're 3 scoop of green tea ice cream with almond, sweet red bean sauce, and dark chocolate as toppings. It's served with green chocolate paste on each corner of the plates.

Honey Toast Matcha Matcha

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I remember I posted an article about some old games here. Some of those games need to be executed in a MS-DOS computer. And since there's nothing more like that in present, so they made a system that would just do the same.

DOSBox is an emulator to emulate/simulate an IBM PC compatible computer running the older operating system, MS-DOS. -Wikipedia

I won't say more detail about it, or how the system works in detail. If you want to know more about DOSBox in detail, just go to Wikipedia, it much more reliable than my blog. haha...
here's the Wikipedia's link. and here's where you can get DOSBox emulator.

It is an open source software written in C++ programming language. Apparently, its development is more focusing in running DOS games. It uses command lines to operate. 


For some people who are not really in a good term with all those command lines (including me), using that command-prompt-like, is such a thing to do. I always think that people who can operates a computer or whatever inside it, by using command lines, is the coolest. It's like literally watching their super advance brain doing some works to produce those lines. Okay, even though I'm a student in informatics engineering major, but that's just not my thing. So, I'm sorry for my lack of ability. *bows*

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Yay! A new single! :D
They posted it yesterday, June 15th, at 0.00 a.m. I guess. I was still awake at that time and doing something with internet though, but I just realize it this afternoon. So unobservant. hahaha...
Anyway, as usual, they did a nice music with beautiful voice. I have posted before about Standing Egg before (here).
It's a cheerful love song, just like the video that using some cute animations. And, I don't know why, by listening to this song make me feel happy in an instance. I end up replaying this song on and on. :D

For the video version with hangeul, romanization, and translation lyrics, you can watch it here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aI5CzB23NMo
It's not officially posted by Standing Egg, some #eggfan do those editing. Love it anyway, so I know now what that song is about. Thank you! :)

Enjoy! And I will keep going too, to finish what I started.

Adios! ^^

Yay! Right when I needed! \(^0^)/
Yesterday, Kak Avi, a close friend of mine came by from Jakarta, and she said wanna hang out for some time. And there we go, to Myeong Ga, a Korean restaurant, or I should say a Korean food stall in front of Korean groceries. She said she'd been craving for its jajangmyun (자장면, black bean paste noodle) for a long time. It's not just the two of us, there were others who came along with us: Reli, Rendy, and Ican. We were planning to go there for lunch, but for some reasons we end up having a late lunch there. Poor our empty stomach..
Anyway, we decided what we wanted to eat. I ordered sundubu ramyun (순두부 라면, ramyun with tofu and egg), Ican ordered bulgogi kimbab (불고기 김밥, kimbab with bulgogi or roasted meat filling), while Kak Avi, Reli, and Rendy ordered jajangmyun. And we also ordered a portion of tteokbokki (떡볶이, rice cake with sauce) as a snack. They're all emptied in no time after it's served. haha... Guess our empty stomach didn't want to compromise more. :D
Now, here're the pictures that Reli had taken. -all credits goes to her-

our tteokbokki snack and kimchi

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It's been a hectic weeks of my life. My final project (on my own) deadline will be coming so soon, not more than a month. And I've been doing some extra works everyday about that. I stayed up late till 1 or 2 a.m. for that, well yeah, I'm occasionally did that too although I have nothing to do but internet. :p
Apparently, my brain works its best after dinner time, so most of my works were done in the night. That's why I had to stay awake to the point where my brain couldn't think straight, and my code will be in mess if I still pushing myself to work more. That's just gonna be more work for me.

And because of all that disturbing-mind-things, I even couldn't get a comfy sleeps! *sigh* All I can remember is that I've been dreaming many things regarding my final project, from a nice dream where I finally make it through the end, to a nightmare where I -um, better not telling it here. don't wanna jinx it-
Feel like I was haunted by that thing, wait, It's really haunting me, not just my feeling. And to make it worse, my friends did the same thing, haunting me. Yeah, I really appreciate that they have much care about me, regarding my late on this final project, really glad actually to have friends that keep pushing me to reach my own goal. But, hey, it's not like I didn't make an effort about that.  I'm so sorry for not replying your messages, B's. :(

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Now, I'm going to make a review about my favorite Korean movie. Its title is "Hello Ghost". I actually knew this movie because the main actor is Cha Tae Hyun, whom I adore for his acting skill. :D
I have watched movies of him such as Babo (Miracles of a Giving Fool) that brings me tears and Speed Scandal that brings me laugh. And this one, brings me to tears every time I watch it. Yes, every time. Even I watch it many times. :'(
But you know what, I end up using it. Every time I feel sad or just want to cry, I watched it. It helps me cry. And then I feel much better after crying. hahaha... :D

• Movie title    : Hello Ghost
• Release year : 2010
• Country        : South Korea
• Language      : Korean

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Yesterday, when I had this-not-really-great mood and coincidentally I had some kind of debt on my friend, Bayu, I wanted to buy him a cheesecake. So I asked him, whether he's able to come and get me to buy those cheesecake together. Then an hour later, we went to this cake shop called "Cizz". It's a small shop that sells cheese based cake only, it's a cheesecake shop. It has many variations and flavors of cheesecake. And after about 30 minutes ride, we arrived there. Thankfully, it's just really us as their customer at that time, so we could enjoy our cheesecake there -you know, since it doesn't have a large space for dine-in purchase-
We chose what we want to buy in the refrigerator display shelf at the side of the cashier. I picked a caramel cheesecake, while Bayu picked a cookies and cream cheesecake. Those cake we picked being served directly from the display. Each of it priced Rp 17.000,- (about USD 2). After paying those two cakes and a bottle of water for Rp 3.000,- we sat on empty seats in front of the cashier and ate it right away. Yummm... :9

Cizz's Caramel Cheesecake

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For a preface, it's not for my wedding. But maybe someday I'll use it. :)
One of my friend asked me to make an invitation wedding wording for her. Her wedding theme is gonna be fairy tale like, so I made some poetic-fairy tale wording with this quote in the end of it:

Everyone has their own fairy tale to live on, as us now end a chapter and begin another, as happily ever after.

Oh, how I wish they're gonna be happy ever after. :D
Happy wedding, girl! While you're at it, I'm gonna live my own fairy tale beautifully, just like you do. Although I don't even know in what chapter I'm in now. hahaha....

Adios! ^^